Gift?

 

So, I’m up early, but actually, I never went to sleep last night. Ms. Straight Gurl called me super late (cuz she’s near San Francisco)…

We might have had, the hands down, sexiest conversation I have ever had with a woman I intend to date. 🤯

She was coming home from a concert and shared about her great time. Then we got into talking about music, which she’s very passionate about. We talked about how powerful music is… and then…...

She made lots of observations about what she calls my "gift”🎁. She was kind of processing out loud and I was mainly just tracking at first. 

She said, "you are very intelligent, more so than most." 

I said, "well thank you. But the fact that I am quick witted was just the luck of the draw and so nothing to covet. 🤷🏽‍♀️

She was like, "Whet?! So many people wish they were smarter and you have the “gift” and you don’t appreciate it?"

I had to explain.. "I am very grateful for each gift the universe has given me. Everyone under the sun was given a gift. So I am simply just like everyone else. My particular gift was just luck of the draw. So I don’t see fit to take credit for it."

Then she said, “intellect is one thing, but you are able to grow. You see areas of improvement, learn in those areas and grow. Many people do not manifest growth like that.”

I said, “While that may true. The art of manifestation is simply yet another gift I was given and again, luck of the draw. I cannot brag about something I did not actually earn or do".

She said, “Why are you playing it down?  It’s amazing and impressive!”

I responded, “I am not playing anything down. I am simply not playing it up. I have gifts, like every human has gifts and I am no better or worse than anyone else. I place no hierarchy between my specific gifts and the gifts of others. They are simply different gifts, worthy of the same acknowledgement whether people are actually “in” their gifts, leveraging them or not. I do not consider myself special. And if by chance I actually am, then so is everyone else... and so we are all back at the same level of humanness.”

She was like…” ooooh, now I think I see your true gift. Its placing others before you or aside and not beneath you. “

I agreed then warned, “while I function at an extremely high level when it comes to mathematics and logic, the altitude in that area has left me with blatant deficiencies in other areas namely some subsistence chores and social things." I told her, "people think I am hilarious but its not because I have any intentional comedic timing. It’s mainly because I have awkward social graces and am often oblivious of what the hell is going on around me. I am so awkward in fact, that at first, I can make people uncomfortable. But once they experience more of me, they come to realize the innocence of my glitch and then show me grace. If I am lucky, they teach me things pertinent to the current situation. Things they know I obviously do not know."

She said, “Wow, you are strong.”

… and I am there thinking 🤔.... I have just disclosed that I have the social graces of a 5 year old and she thinks I’m strong! LMAO…😂🤣 

She explains, “Ultimate strength is displayed by being vulnerable. Most people do not like being vulnerable but vulnerability creates space for learning and growth. You have to be Ok, with people seeing you … not know a thing…”

🤯 My perception was shifted in such a cool way… I agreed…

We went on to talk about family, leadership, fitness and friendships. In each arena she heightened my awareness and broadened my perspective. 

I hope that sharing space with me affected her positively as well…. She calls me overwhelming, which is funny because Ms. Disinterested also called me overwhelming, lol… Except Ms. Straight Gurl says, it’s a good thing… somehow 🤷🏽‍♀️. She asks about my day, goals and thoughts and says my responses are "overwhelming"… literally over stimulating in some way. I don’t know what to make of that feedback exactly. I will however trust, when she tells me its a positive thing that she means it. 

After all of that “sexy” conversation, it was super late, I had talked the night away, no time for sleep and now here I am writing to get this out of my head and make space for work thoughts….

This sure is interesting….