Bad at sports much?

 

So, it finally happened boys and girls... reality struck, and guess what? It stings...

Today's epiphany: I am NOT athletic. I am bad at ALL sports. I am bad at anything and everything which requires physical coordination, strength or skill.... 

No big deal you say.... I understand. I mean, it really wouldn't be a big deal at all.... if I didn't absolutely LOVE to play sports...  

For example: I've been running for a while now. At first, I could only run for maybe 30 seconds at a time. I used to have a flailing "gay boy running away from something scary" type of run (even though I'm a girl). Now a few years later, I can run for over 5 miles straight, with much better running form. So what's the problem you ask?

Here it is: I've been running for YEARS now. Yes, I've improved. Yes, I've gotten into better shape. But when will I ever be able to run faster or at least at an average pace? I'll tell you when... NEVER.. because I realize no matter how hard I try I simply do NOT have what it takes. So where does this leave me? It leaves me coming in at last place again, that's where it leaves me. When I run, people actually WALK past me... literally, i'm panting, huffing and puffing and then..... an old lady, a small child or a couple pushing a stroller literally WALKS past me!  What the DEUCE?!

At this point, no one can tell me to just give it more time because like I said, I've been running for several years now, at least 3. 

 I'm an un-athletic women who happens to love athletics.... pathetic isn't it? Not only is it pathetic but it wreaks havoc on the old ego. I mean, I don't have a huge fragile ego, otherwise I would have quit a long time ago. However, it would be nice NOT to come in last place every single time I do anything athletic. It would be nice to feel like I am at least average...... that's all. I just want to be average, normal instead of being a fumbling mess at all times and trying not to trip or fall down when I walk...

Is that too much to ask for? Maybe so...

Back to my uncoordinated and un-athletic life....

Over and Out......